in reference to my post on caffeine

so a long time ago i posted about me giving up soda for lent. i just re-read the post, and i said that i hoped giving it up for lent would help me cut back on soda when lent was over.....

well here is the update on that.

i havent really cut back. i guess maybe a little i have, but i still have at least one soda a day, well maybe two. that is so not okay.

i havent been drinking as much water as i should be either....i keep not buying a new nalgene so i dont have one to fill up...and i am starting to use that as an excuse not to drink water......

so i will keep you posted on how this is going....my soda problem and whether or not i am drinking enough water.....

thoughts, aspirations, dreams, words. whatever you want to call them.

i have been thinking. about a lot of things. not just one thing, everything seems to go through my mind all at once. it isnt always a bad thing, but it's not always a good thing. sometimes it gets overwhelming and i feel as if i dont have time to think about the things that i need to think about, the things that at the time are more important than the many thoughts in my head. it has been better lately because my thoughts have been taking a break when i am trying to sleep. it is the worst when i cant fall asleep because i cannot stop thinking about who the heck knows what. i always have songs going through my head, not just one or two....it's more of a medley of like five or six songs....peices of the songs...most of the time i dont know the full song. on top of that i am thinking about school, the girls on my floor, what i am going to do with my time, why i am wasting my time, what things i should be doing instead of wasting my time.....stuff like that is always in my head.....all the time. it is rather annoying when i just want to sit and think...when i just want to spend time in silence...which for me is rare...and this makes it even harder.

so many things go through my head all the time. and i am sure this is not an uncommon thing for anyone...but i feel like i cant turn my mind off. and sometimes that is all i want to do. is turn my brain off...well not my brain...just put a stop to the many, sometimes useless thoughts that are going through my head. just to be able to sit down and spend time with God. to spend time listening to him and hearing what he has to say to me. my thoughts make that hard.

all i ask is for my mind to calm down for a little while each day.

the thing is i dont know how to do that.

a while has past since my last words

some time has past

since i posted last

not a day or two

nor month nor year

just some time,

when i didnt share

the things that were on

my mind.

so many thoughts,

ran through my mind

during the time,

the time of past.

but i didnt write any of them

down here.

its not because

i didnt want to

or because i forgot to...

the reason behind

this gap in time

since my last words

appeared here

is

unknown

to me.